So this year I have been really slack about getting up here and checking in with you guys, and I’m sorry. I’m going to really try to be better about that. New Year, New You and all that.
With the new year coming up, of course, everyone is talking about New Year’s resolutions and how they are going to be better than they were in 2018. The truth is, New Year’s resolutions are just another opportunity to make you feel like you aren’t good enough when you don’t succeed.
So my resolution is not to go to the gym more (let’s be honest, that’s never going to happen). It’s also not to stop eating so much junk food (not looking good on that one either).
My resolution is to look for the joy. It’s to stop being so pessimistic about things and try to find the good in my life.
So I’m going to start early and find the good in this day and being happy with what I have and not what I think I need.
I’ve been sick for the last few days. It started with a sore throat, then that cleared up and turned into a head cold. Yuck. BUT today, it’s getting better. I’m able to breathe through BOTH nostrils with only a little help from Vicks. I was able to sleep before work this afternoon and didn’t cough until I peed.
Tomorrow is a new day and it will bring on its own problems.
But for today, I will find the joy and name at least one thing I’m thankful for.
I will also stop trying to find the joy in the materialistic things that I want. Having new countertops will not make me happy. It will not bring me contentment to have a beautifully decorated house (not that it is — my house looks like raccoons have infiltrated HVAC system and are holding us hostage).
I am going to find contentment and peace in the love and affection of my husband. I will find quiet fulfillment in reading with my children. I will not feel the need to constantly have a project or a job to do to keep myself busy, so busy that I don’t have time to think about the way that I wish life was or should have been. 
All that being said, I’m going to have to make a conscious decision to do this every day. There are going to be days that I feel like I don’t want to get out of bed. There are going be to moments of short patience. There are going to be marriage arguments and raised voices. No one is flawless and perfection isn’t the goal.
Finding joy, contentment, and peace in each moment is the goal.
What’s your resolution?
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